Hmm today i gave my resignation letter le. Feel so.. Well can't really describe how i'm feeling. Happy that i'm gonna be free, but at the same time i feel that a part of me has been removed and can nv be recovered. Its just like graduating from sch man. Ur glad that u dun nid to go there already but still u'll miss it.
This week my emotions really going up and down man. I dunno why too. Guess my karma caught up to me, for slacking so much over the years that now when i really nid to do things i feel the stress that i haven felt .
Haiya since everyone says dun think so much about it i shall not. No willy stop thinking about it! Sometimes i really feel that life is real boring where all the real fun is in the first 20 years of your life. After that is the boring and working life of the 20-50/60s. After that u'll be into the tired and relaxing(if ur money is not scammed or didn't even save up) life. By then hopefully u'll have children or even grandchildren to look after or fret about.
Lol i dun wanna be those people that nag too much but i tink thats impossible since even now when i'm young i'm already nagging at some ppl liao when i'm old i'll be even worst. Haha. Ok its a shorter one compared to the last post. Yay!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Update!
Lol just realize that i didn't update for the whole of this 5 days. Gonna split into 2 post, one is on the happening this week and the other one is any great reflection in this week.
This one is on the happenings. Ok start from mon! Ok great can't rmb wat i did. LOL. Oh it was raining that day since we were like shivering all the way while going to makan place. In the end also didn't eat there since too many frigging ppl. Borrowed the alumni card from weijin and we went to alumni clubhse eat again. Saw Qi en with her friends. So zhun. Then went to lib to slack till lesson start lorh then nth le.
Tues is I&E which i hate. Although i must say it wasn't that bad in the end but still. I just find that its the most undoable project out of all of them. Then the lesson also damn short sia. Release like 1 hour earlier. Can't rmb but i think thats the day when i accompany boss go JP. Her cousin b'day so get to eat gd stuff. Lol then also we went to popular to buy some paints that she val and su nid for their GV thingy. Chat also lorh about some stuff.
Wed was interesting since we got to go the the solar powered place at ngee ann. So cool lah. Like see all the solar panel and etc. Then see like how it helps to reduce the power the building use. Just plain cool.
Thurs lesson end early de day.But during the break we celebrated huihui's b'day. Fun as usual. Haha i dun think i'll upload the photos. Then many of us stayed back at atrium to do AQMC report but in the end also nv do must, for me and Xianglin lah that is. Then Xianglin accompany me go Gekpoh cut hair. Aiyah wah a loust place u recommend. I go back my own one next time le lah. LOL now my hair is back to its worst state. Then after that went to eat mac and listen to xianglin talk ALOT. Lol hope she better dun see this. But it was fun and now i understand her better. Haha.
Y'day morn nth much lorh, lesson nia. Maths was super tiring as usual. Then elective was boring as usual. What i had expected had happened, the 2 person that had pon the last 2 tutorial really came to our group sia. LOL. So zhun man. I can go be fortune teller. I tink next time, i should go home by myself since going with u is the same as not going with u. Plus i find it weird trying to maintain my silence. Haiz nvm.
Ok this is quite long i tink. Wahaha.
This one is on the happenings. Ok start from mon! Ok great can't rmb wat i did. LOL. Oh it was raining that day since we were like shivering all the way while going to makan place. In the end also didn't eat there since too many frigging ppl. Borrowed the alumni card from weijin and we went to alumni clubhse eat again. Saw Qi en with her friends. So zhun. Then went to lib to slack till lesson start lorh then nth le.
Tues is I&E which i hate. Although i must say it wasn't that bad in the end but still. I just find that its the most undoable project out of all of them. Then the lesson also damn short sia. Release like 1 hour earlier. Can't rmb but i think thats the day when i accompany boss go JP. Her cousin b'day so get to eat gd stuff. Lol then also we went to popular to buy some paints that she val and su nid for their GV thingy. Chat also lorh about some stuff.
Wed was interesting since we got to go the the solar powered place at ngee ann. So cool lah. Like see all the solar panel and etc. Then see like how it helps to reduce the power the building use. Just plain cool.
Thurs lesson end early de day.But during the break we celebrated huihui's b'day. Fun as usual. Haha i dun think i'll upload the photos. Then many of us stayed back at atrium to do AQMC report but in the end also nv do must, for me and Xianglin lah that is. Then Xianglin accompany me go Gekpoh cut hair. Aiyah wah a loust place u recommend. I go back my own one next time le lah. LOL now my hair is back to its worst state. Then after that went to eat mac and listen to xianglin talk ALOT. Lol hope she better dun see this. But it was fun and now i understand her better. Haha.
Y'day morn nth much lorh, lesson nia. Maths was super tiring as usual. Then elective was boring as usual. What i had expected had happened, the 2 person that had pon the last 2 tutorial really came to our group sia. LOL. So zhun man. I can go be fortune teller. I tink next time, i should go home by myself since going with u is the same as not going with u. Plus i find it weird trying to maintain my silence. Haiz nvm.
Ok this is quite long i tink. Wahaha.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Monday
Well i'm really hating tues now, since there's I&E. Its a stupid module thats adding unneeded amount of white hair to my head.
Something happened today, which made me totally sian. Not gonna say out though some already know wat it is.
Told my mother about quitting work and she just said if u wan to then just do it. But she started asking about why again. 1 year spent on sch and work only is really tiring. Some might say "its just 5 hours" but that 5 hours is fixed and u can't change it. "Well change ur timings to fit it" and i did try but its almost impossible. Which just means i have to give it a miss. "Well then go the next one" BUT THE NEXT TIME THE SAME THING HAPPEN AGAIN. Why do we need to worry about money so much when other people are surviving with more mouth to feed and less income than us? Is it wrong to wish to do other things in poly other that go to sch and go work? Even if i have a CCA, can i even spare the time to really enjoy myself there? My co-worker already feeling tired after a few weeks sch started.
Projects just keep reminding itself in my head and work is a load on my mind and having additional incidents just doesn't make it better.
The tears just won't stop even if i hate myself for crying.
Something happened today, which made me totally sian. Not gonna say out though some already know wat it is.
Told my mother about quitting work and she just said if u wan to then just do it. But she started asking about why again. 1 year spent on sch and work only is really tiring. Some might say "its just 5 hours" but that 5 hours is fixed and u can't change it. "Well change ur timings to fit it" and i did try but its almost impossible. Which just means i have to give it a miss. "Well then go the next one" BUT THE NEXT TIME THE SAME THING HAPPEN AGAIN. Why do we need to worry about money so much when other people are surviving with more mouth to feed and less income than us? Is it wrong to wish to do other things in poly other that go to sch and go work? Even if i have a CCA, can i even spare the time to really enjoy myself there? My co-worker already feeling tired after a few weeks sch started.
Projects just keep reminding itself in my head and work is a load on my mind and having additional incidents just doesn't make it better.
The tears just won't stop even if i hate myself for crying.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!
I wish all mothers a happy day today! Today so many ppl at NTUC. Abit shock dao, maybe cause all wan to buy things to go home cook for the whole family? Or buy extra things in case if the husband cook and fail got back up ingredients can cook other stuff. Lol. But can see a big difference lah, all the aunties/mothers like going orchard liddat wear till so nice come NTUC. So weird. Woo but i was so bored that i was on a housefly extermination rampage today. With my trusty D4 spray in hand, i defeated 30plus houseflies! With about 5 is killed by hand, since they too stupid to fly away. Duno why there's SOOOO many of them, is like at first is cai da-ge(he quite young 23 nia so call da-ge) go started this. Then i bored so continue on, then another TL also come do it. LOL.
Then yeah i took the resignation form le, guess its for real this time. Knn everytime also got things to tempt me to not quit, since they said in august can get bonus of 1 month. Zzz... If really no more work, gonna save up le, no more anyhow spending it on food Zzz..... Must get my piggy bank habit back. Lol.
Oh yeah shit tml mon again. Weeks are passing by so fast, I&E is making me hate tues now. Its such a no head no tail module. Wats more everyone is busy and not free to do stuff. Organizing an event nids even more planning than a report and with everyone so busy how to do sia. Man i dun wanna think about it. Gonna do all my main projects finish first. One step at a time man!
Sian sometimes i really wanna find someone to talk to, as in really talk about ALL the things that i wanna say. But doubt i will find that person soon. Lol.
Conflicts rising in the 2 out of 3 main countries, think soon iron curtain gonna be up. Dun understand? Then ask me. LOL so simple. Too bad for the ally in rival country, you're on ur own.
Last friday went for the CSS NP alumni welcome tea. Quite fun, saw many friends that i haven saw for a long time. Lol and played games and i kana forfeit. So gay the forfeit. Wanna see it go to Facebook and ask yuling for it. LOL. But i realize what i really miss is talking to ppl on the way back home. Since coming to poly, everyday is spent going to sch and going home alone with no one to talk to. Ok morn got Xianglin i forgot. But after sch is alone. Makes me think of the times in sec sch where we would always make a big racket at the busstop and bus. Be it with friends from my class, or after choir where all of us would go home tgt and be damn noisy. Sometimes we will be so tired that all will be slping, then that gay rick will gay with me since his head will be on my shoulder. But those were the days where we will chat about all kinds of things. And thats what make it so fun. But now in poly everyone is living in different places and its hard to find people that u live near or tgt with.
Anyway now i'm only spending all my time talking to my friends or slacking. LOL.
Then yeah i took the resignation form le, guess its for real this time. Knn everytime also got things to tempt me to not quit, since they said in august can get bonus of 1 month. Zzz... If really no more work, gonna save up le, no more anyhow spending it on food Zzz..... Must get my piggy bank habit back. Lol.
Oh yeah shit tml mon again. Weeks are passing by so fast, I&E is making me hate tues now. Its such a no head no tail module. Wats more everyone is busy and not free to do stuff. Organizing an event nids even more planning than a report and with everyone so busy how to do sia. Man i dun wanna think about it. Gonna do all my main projects finish first. One step at a time man!
Sian sometimes i really wanna find someone to talk to, as in really talk about ALL the things that i wanna say. But doubt i will find that person soon. Lol.
Conflicts rising in the 2 out of 3 main countries, think soon iron curtain gonna be up. Dun understand? Then ask me. LOL so simple. Too bad for the ally in rival country, you're on ur own.
Last friday went for the CSS NP alumni welcome tea. Quite fun, saw many friends that i haven saw for a long time. Lol and played games and i kana forfeit. So gay the forfeit. Wanna see it go to Facebook and ask yuling for it. LOL. But i realize what i really miss is talking to ppl on the way back home. Since coming to poly, everyday is spent going to sch and going home alone with no one to talk to. Ok morn got Xianglin i forgot. But after sch is alone. Makes me think of the times in sec sch where we would always make a big racket at the busstop and bus. Be it with friends from my class, or after choir where all of us would go home tgt and be damn noisy. Sometimes we will be so tired that all will be slping, then that gay rick will gay with me since his head will be on my shoulder. But those were the days where we will chat about all kinds of things. And thats what make it so fun. But now in poly everyone is living in different places and its hard to find people that u live near or tgt with.
Anyway now i'm only spending all my time talking to my friends or slacking. LOL.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Industrial Attachment Program
Today attended a talk on our year 3 modules, whether we will take 6month Industrial attachment or 6month Project design & development or 2 month attachment and Final year project. I want to go for the Industrial attachment but i'm afraid. There's also alot of unanswered questions like wat will happen to our Diploma Plus, the top 40% is whole course or whole class. The one thing i was totally afraid of is the interview lah. Like all interviews i go is fail one neh! Sec sch got 1, poly got like 3. Zzzz, totally no confidence liao.
Working in Ntuc so long has made me have a impression that work is always easy and slackish. Which is totally not the case and made me quite nervous. Like if really get in and goes to a certain company how will i cope? Can i survive there? So many things to consider.
Then while listening to the talk, suddenly thought about the future. Will we still be able to meet up and chat? Talking and laughing together... Really makes me wanna talk to ur forever in sch, just sitting down and joking with ur. In 2 years time i'll be doing my NS while all of them will be going to university(i guess? all so smart sure go one lah) Then by the time i come out they will be either in last year of uni or starting work(if got exemption). By then they'll be so busy. While i will need to really consider if i wanna go uni. Which as of now i have no intention of going.
This past year i had so much fun with all u girls ( guys in the other clique ur not forgotten) and i really can't even imagine the future without u ppl. I'm still a crybaby afterall. Really want to spend more time with u ppl since there's only 1 year plus left(Not including IAP or PDD). I dun wan us to drift apart even after we left Ngee ann and continue on with our life. I really want to see the day when i see u girls get married and maybe even when u have ur children. Lol still quite long away but yet not so far away. Time flys when we become adults and start working. Everyday u work with only wkends to rest and then its work again. Its a continuous cycle. They say only friends u make in sec sch last but i dun believe it. I want the friends that i made in poly to last forever till the end.
So guess its my another LONG post again. Lol Congratulations in reading finish that big paragraph of words( if u skipped then u suck! Lol!) Just hope that time won't cheat me and shorten my already limited time with all of you.
Working in Ntuc so long has made me have a impression that work is always easy and slackish. Which is totally not the case and made me quite nervous. Like if really get in and goes to a certain company how will i cope? Can i survive there? So many things to consider.
Then while listening to the talk, suddenly thought about the future. Will we still be able to meet up and chat? Talking and laughing together... Really makes me wanna talk to ur forever in sch, just sitting down and joking with ur. In 2 years time i'll be doing my NS while all of them will be going to university(i guess? all so smart sure go one lah) Then by the time i come out they will be either in last year of uni or starting work(if got exemption). By then they'll be so busy. While i will need to really consider if i wanna go uni. Which as of now i have no intention of going.
This past year i had so much fun with all u girls ( guys in the other clique ur not forgotten) and i really can't even imagine the future without u ppl. I'm still a crybaby afterall. Really want to spend more time with u ppl since there's only 1 year plus left(Not including IAP or PDD). I dun wan us to drift apart even after we left Ngee ann and continue on with our life. I really want to see the day when i see u girls get married and maybe even when u have ur children. Lol still quite long away but yet not so far away. Time flys when we become adults and start working. Everyday u work with only wkends to rest and then its work again. Its a continuous cycle. They say only friends u make in sec sch last but i dun believe it. I want the friends that i made in poly to last forever till the end.
So guess its my another LONG post again. Lol Congratulations in reading finish that big paragraph of words( if u skipped then u suck! Lol!) Just hope that time won't cheat me and shorten my already limited time with all of you.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Monday blues
Oh well the stupid thewest game dun wanna let me in so nth i can do about it. Maybe wait and see how it will go lorh. I spent so much time on the game and it treat me like this. Really feel abit like crying sia. Zzzz.
Haiz nvm shall forget it. Today Someone was so angry over something that happen. Aiyoh he joker nth u can do about it luh, at least tml u wont see him right? Happy abit pls. Lol. Everything is a joker to him lah so take it easy i guess. Can't really say anything to you since i myself is a frequent TNT that goes off sometime or another.
Today first 2 hours of lesson was cancelled so got to slp abit later but i still reach sch like at 10 when the lesson starts at 11. Lol so i went and bought straits times to read for fun. So many things happening nowadays. Like the AWARE incident and the Influenza A(swine flu H1N1). Its a very big event since singapore still rmbs the SARS incident and do not want it to happen again. Now even going to the library u nid to have identification. I was abit shocked just now. Lol.
Anyway 1 article i read in the newspaper was saying about vaccination and some other stuff. Like when the decision to make Tan Tock Seng hospital into a SARS only hospital everyone was criticizing the Director of medicalservices for being 'kiasu' but within weeks their decisions were proven sound and we have being recognized internationally for the quick reactions. I tink its really a very meaningful article trying to encourage people to think about wat our ministers or higherups are trying to do before we criticize them.
Hmm end of the line, Pls think in other people's shoes ( i know constance and winnie did that today) and that to take care of urself and not get infected by the flu.
Stay strong and Stay healthy everyone!
Haiz nvm shall forget it. Today Someone was so angry over something that happen. Aiyoh he joker nth u can do about it luh, at least tml u wont see him right? Happy abit pls. Lol. Everything is a joker to him lah so take it easy i guess. Can't really say anything to you since i myself is a frequent TNT that goes off sometime or another.
Today first 2 hours of lesson was cancelled so got to slp abit later but i still reach sch like at 10 when the lesson starts at 11. Lol so i went and bought straits times to read for fun. So many things happening nowadays. Like the AWARE incident and the Influenza A(swine flu H1N1). Its a very big event since singapore still rmbs the SARS incident and do not want it to happen again. Now even going to the library u nid to have identification. I was abit shocked just now. Lol.
Anyway 1 article i read in the newspaper was saying about vaccination and some other stuff. Like when the decision to make Tan Tock Seng hospital into a SARS only hospital everyone was criticizing the Director of medicalservices for being 'kiasu' but within weeks their decisions were proven sound and we have being recognized internationally for the quick reactions. I tink its really a very meaningful article trying to encourage people to think about wat our ministers or higherups are trying to do before we criticize them.
Hmm end of the line, Pls think in other people's shoes ( i know constance and winnie did that today) and that to take care of urself and not get infected by the flu.
Stay strong and Stay healthy everyone!
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Time
Well its so late but suddenly feel like blogging. Ok maybe not that late for some of u. No one online to talk to or there is someone but i have no topic to talk to her about. Nth to do as usual and in another 12 hours will have to go work again. Its so pathetic. Although its a chore having to stand there for 5 hours doing nth(since there's not much ppl), at least its better than sitting at home wasting electricity and growing fat. So much time, so much things i can do but i just dunno wat to do. To think that sometime ago i was still comtemplating about finding about a gf but forget about it. FORGET IT MAN. With me now, having a gf is just making someone else suffer, with my frequent unpredictable behaviour. I really wonder how boss they all can stay me sometimes, LOL.
After typing the above paragraph, i realize the topic is changing from 1 sentance to another. Wow so i'm really random after all. Now i finally see how fat i am and wat am i gonna do about it? No idea. Lol maybe climb stair to tutorials forever? See bah.
Projects are coming, with the deadlines approaching( still a few weeks away though) but i find that the teaming is really very unstable. Even with 3 groups, all the members are different. Out of a class of 24, having 3 dif groups in dif modules and all dif members is abit rare man. Hope next sem i wont have to deal with this again. I know u ppl like to stick tgt but dun too over ok? Try changing the members in ur groups pls.
People are so predictable once u get to know them well. Close to each other, will always be tgt, things u do tgt, secrets u share with each other. Ppl that u will interact with will differ and everyone is all apart. Some with their friends, some with their bf, while others are left alone. Find someone else to rant to man, no use telling them.
Ok that was totally some crap that i typed out. If u can understand then ur pro or really close to me. LOL which is like rare? Haha.
After typing the above paragraph, i realize the topic is changing from 1 sentance to another. Wow so i'm really random after all. Now i finally see how fat i am and wat am i gonna do about it? No idea. Lol maybe climb stair to tutorials forever? See bah.
Projects are coming, with the deadlines approaching( still a few weeks away though) but i find that the teaming is really very unstable. Even with 3 groups, all the members are different. Out of a class of 24, having 3 dif groups in dif modules and all dif members is abit rare man. Hope next sem i wont have to deal with this again. I know u ppl like to stick tgt but dun too over ok? Try changing the members in ur groups pls.
People are so predictable once u get to know them well. Close to each other, will always be tgt, things u do tgt, secrets u share with each other. Ppl that u will interact with will differ and everyone is all apart. Some with their friends, some with their bf, while others are left alone. Find someone else to rant to man, no use telling them.
Ok that was totally some crap that i typed out. If u can understand then ur pro or really close to me. LOL which is like rare? Haha.
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