Sick all around

Everyone is sick sia. Me winnie boss and val. Well at least winnie and val got their bf to give them love and care(quoted from someone go figure it out) I dunno about boss but i'm stuck at home eating panadol and trying to reduce the dust intake into my body, my mother was burning offerings or smt.

Last day of hols, actually wanted to go out to eat pepper lunch at JP with tze hock and MX. Guess we weren't meant to meet each other till sch start bah. I ate maggi mee just now, hmm the chicken abalone quite ok wat, why all dun like to eat. The only thing is that i tink my taste bud is having a riot, anything i eat or drink i also taste it as salty, even when i rinse my mouth the water also taste salty, weird huh.

Wah nabei this shit person walk by go scratch his keys on the wall or smt, making weird noise. I seriously xia dao leh, like those heart skip a beat kind, maybe cause it reminds me of sorority row. Knn itchy hands sia this guy.

Well i tink i might be ok by evening but better dun take any chance by going out. Hope everyone stays healthy!

Chalet!

Ok back from chalet at pasir ris. Now posting from my grandma hse, haha since my cousin went out so i kop his com to use. Hmm chalet was at pasir ris costa sands, the place where i had my sec3 camp. We booked the 1 storey one which was totally sianed, the toilet is small and the shower head is like bathing with air as said by norman. First day got Boss su yana winnie constance ernest and kelis. Well we met su and yana at the chalet itself. After that we went to the NTUC at E!Hub to buy some of the food for BBQ on the 2nd day then later on norman jon also came. Then at night tim and val came. Then we went to watch midnight movie. At first boss wan to watch cloudy with the chance of meatball but then change to wan watch Darah but the ppl there check the age so constance and val not yet 18 cannot watch. Then finally decided to watch sorority row. Kns its a gore(?) movie lah. Or killing movie nia. I dont't know since i humji and close my eyes since the killing started. So essentially i closed my eye for 80% of the show. Then i forgot wat we did..... I only rmb boss su yana and hui2 went to the toilet at the swimming pool to bathe. Then after awhile i went to sit outside the toilet and wait for them. Gd thing i did since opposite the toilet the apartment had 3 malays guys whu were acting suspiciously. Then val and tim went off also.

Then at 4am in the morn me norman jon and ernest went to eat mac breakfast. Then sat down there and talked cock for quite awhile b4 going back. Then the 4 of us, or rather 3 plus my head lie on the pull out bed below the 2 single beds then played some stupid game where i lost till can tuo ku(lose till no pants) one. Joke. Then liyana had to wake up to go work so i accompany her walk half way there lorh then went back and slp for 2 hours at the bed. Then the girls all woke up and went to eat so i also go lorh, lol i hungry anyway although it had only been the most 4 hours? LOL. Then i forgot lri did we prepare the prawns on the first day or the 2nd day? Anyway after the guys woke up and then went to eat and came back we play taiti and gamble lorh, then after that was blackjack. Kns ernest seriously damn lucky lah, he blackjack like 4 times in like 1 hour? Anyway i dun tink i even got so many blackjack in ONE day lah. KNSKNSKNS. Lol so i was the biggest loser there. Then after that was BBQ, was busy cooking. Then sarah wann doreen tim val weixiong lyndia xianglin and wangshuang came for the BBQ. BBQ nth much to write about lorh. Except that they damn joke when got cockroach. All run sia, then kip asking me to kill it, which part of my face got the words cockroach exterminator? Lol but nvm lah must learn from my mother. Plus its rare that there's smt that they are scared of till ask me do. LOLOL. Then after BBQ all went back home liao lorh, left me boss su val liyana and huihui nia. Winnie was sick so went home while constance her mother wans her to go home. Then at night they siao siao wan to go play sparklers. So walked to somewhere near the beach there to play. Scary sia then got this guy sitting under the tree there so dark only can see his phone light lorh. Scare ppl nia.

Then go back drink beer then i fell aslp, cannot take it lah few hours of slp and with the bed and beer sleepy. Haha. Then wake up, packed and went to white sands eat KFC. Finally went home then.

I still tong till 7plus lorh, then i cmi slp liao, until 12 wake up then drink some soup and play psp till 1.20 am then slp again. HAHA.

Finally sch starting again, didnt buy my books yet gonna wait till sch start then buy sian sure nid wait like toot liddat. Ok lah type this post so long kns tired sia. Gonna post soon again i guess, on some other issues.

Be more money minded pls!

These 2 days i lie on my bed and the first thing that i think of is how much money i spent just y'day alone. Well thats about $200. Considering that i bought a crumpler bag and went to eat sakura. =.= I have no idea why the hell did i go on a spending spree. Well most ppl are damn happy after buying things but for me i only think about how much i spent on it and the more i tink the more sian i become. My first bag that i bought myself and with my own money so i should be more happy but i actually dun feel anything. Maybe cause i spent almost 1 month thinking whether i should buy it anot and i have ample time to reflect how much money i will use just to get this bag.

I suppose i can say i made a promise with myself, that i will not spend so much already. When sch starts i shall not spend so much unnecessary money anymore. No more buying of food just cause i wanna eat smt or eating dessert just cause i feel like it. I guess it can also serve as a way to monitor my food intake? Watever anyway.

Only in this 7 weeks of hols have i realize how much money i have spent. Thought about many things over these 3 days. For the past 2 hols i had been working and with that i am earning money faster than i am spending it so i dun realize how much i spend during the hols. Also because of my work timing i dun have time to go out also so it also serve to cut down on my spendings. But now that i am not working i can clearly see the amount of money i have used and how i spent it, whats more it will only get worst as i start to buy more things and paying for everything myself. There's always the possibility of some unforeseen crisis that will cause my to burn off a load of money? I wonder if thats how poor ppl feel like except they feel it everyday and at a larger scale.

Back in sec sch its still possible to save quite alot but in the end i still spend it all on some useless things but now in poly i can't, gotta have to change this bad habit.

In the future when i will be out there earning my own keep, will i earn enough to support all of us? With a dip is it enough to get a gd enough job? Or do i nid to get a higher deg to get the requirement for me to find a higher pay job? Do i wan to spend the money of going to uni and spending loads of money on it just to get a higher pay? Is it really worth my time? Will i be able to find a gd yet stable job with my dip and work up and eventually reach or surpass the amount i could have earned with a degree? How long will that take and what if there are obstacles lying in wait to make me stumble while climbing?

So many questions, fears, uncertainty but no solutions nor answers or even confidence that i can overcome them. No one can give me the answers anyway, its up to me to carve my own path through and perhaps with luck and a determination that i have not yet found.

Belief is a powerful thing but it is always fogged over by history and time causing strife.

Clique outing!

Wahahahaha i waited 1 day later then blog. Too lazy to write seriously. But well its for future references so no choice. OMG i read from others de blog that our archives will be deleted when it exceed is it???? NOooooooooo. Ok i shall change b4 it reach that level or smt. But its a hassle leh. Hmm see how bah.

Ok so that was y'day, i woke up at 9 since i couldn't slp and watch dora the explorer with my bro. Now that show not restricted to that monkey in boots liao, got liamia(?)(U know those monks from tibet use one?) and then got the wat armadillo also, soon the whole zoo will be there i tell u. Ok then since its raining(started like 10mins after i wake up) i bathe and went out earlier. Abit too early which is shown later when i reach bedok at like 11.25am(meet time 12pm). So i sat down on the stairs and listen mp3 and read my book. Then aboutttt 12 then i saw winnie constance and kelis, followed by boss then su and finally val reached. Huihui met us at bedok interchange and then we went to eat breakfast first. Aiyah hui2 wear high heels and shot up to the tallest person in our clique. HAHAHAH. Then took 40? to Katong SC.

Well the place is actually ok if u really wanna tink about it for the prize we pay. I mean $42 for a large room from 1-7 is quite cheap le. Somemore we 8 ppl so essentially we paid $5.25 each only. I tink sing the most de is Val constance and me bah? Ok i should say ppl that sang little are hui2 boss and winnie. Then during the middle of it they were trying out hui2's high heels. My god made them all like giant liddat pls especially boss. LOL. Then after that boss winnie and hui2 went out for a talk or smt bah? No idea then left us inside. Hahaha left lesser ppl so become abit more siao and sing more enthusiastically. Hehe i shy person ok 7 ppl is too many. Somemore the song i sang at that time is 1 that i really like. WOOTS. Hmm then after that we went to eat katong laksa lorh, go katong how can dun eat the food thats famous there? Then su and val went to eat shaved ice. Ice that are cut into shreds. Then after that go home lorh.

Val did not nid to cross the road to take her bus so we part ways, then boss and su walk towards some far off bus stop while winnie and i went to the bus stop that was opposite the katong SC but 1 stop b4 it. Then winnie's bus 10 came so she went on. I actually quite lost since i forgot which bus can take to mrt. Well so i wasted 1omins watching the bus info board. Finally i manage to realize that i can take bus 12 to lavander station to go home. So while i wait for the bus to come, well the bus passed by as i realize i can take it wat to do, i saw a super funny thing. At first i was staring at the road, then i saw this thing moving at the curb, then i saw that its a rat, not fat but rather long and well fed bah. Then i was staring at it and u know wat it did? It went scampering onto the road and stopped at the middle of the 2 lane road staring at the car. I thought that it was actually dumb enough to run under the wheel but i was sadly disappointed. When the car come then it quickly CHIONG AH back to the safety of the pavement. Then not quite done with its adventure it decided to explore the bus stop or more specifically a lady's legs whu was sitting at the end of the bus stop on the lower seats. So the rat RUN AH past the lady's legs, attracting her attention for about.... 30secs. LOL. That ends the adventure of jerry the rat!

Then ok lorh nth liao. I actually wanted to take picture of it one, sian if i know rats so daring in katong that time rats assignment i go katong find liao. Haha. Oh and mr CHUA MING XUAN coming back sin tml. HAVE A SAFE RETURN!!

Finally again.

Woots i was so damn happy y'day cause one piece was out SO EARLY! Yay but that means longer wait next week, Damn. Lol i tink now boss val su should be on their way to eating popeye? At first is say today whole clique go one but then constance goh pan hui says that she got camp so now we had to cancel it. Lol i dun understand why they love popeye so much sia. Maybe cause i never ate it b4. Haha. Well nowadays is really nolife as huishi said with me staying at home and just... Wasting time away. So as usual my mum starts to nag about WHYYYYY i dun wan to go work. Hmm i actually feel abit guilty about it lah but now, forget it bah. If next hols i ever still have time i will go work, i swear it!

Then last sat went to orchard with peifen ruimin jinyu adeline and lili(dunno how to spell her name) Aiyah then nth lorh, went to watch Fame. Not a bad show though, kind of like watching HSM. Then went to see crumpler but then i see liao like not really that gd leh, hmm but i made up my mind to buy one liao so tink i will in the end. Haha. Hmm boss say wan to go watch cloudy with a chance of meatball. Lol she was like, wahhh if can die under a pile of spagehtti how nice would it be. Damn funny lah.

Then i tink the next time i would go out of my hse would be this sun go celebrate kong weixiong's b'day. So long nv see xianglin they all liao. Hehe i also can do my job. To do smt. Lala.

Somehow i feel that suddenly i wanna go read up on history, those damn old histories like BC XXX things. Must be cause of all those books MX lend me, all about these things, Alexander the Great, King arthur, Ancient wonders, Hidden histories. Its quite fascinating actually. And MX dun bother telling YES its interesting i know already. LOL.

Ok thats all bah, really nth much to write anyway. Hey i just realize now i can finally dun nid to see keyboard to type. YAY but with mistakes lah. Haha

Safe journey!

Well Mr chua mingxuan left singapore y'day for aussie! Rich ******* LOL. No lah at least i have someone to go there to buy things give me! Yay! Haha me and huishi already psycho him to buy us souveniers from aussie. If he don't.... well i wish him luck. But sian now i so lonely liao 1 less person to crap with, somemore he's usually 24/7 available one, ok except when he slping but i can call him and wake him up. HAHA so evil. Mx is a damn gd friend lah. He will never ps u one unless is some big thing plus he dun get angry usually. Come to think of it i always ps him >.< . The only thing with him is he dun have the courage to tell the person that he like wat he feels. Hope he might catch some blondie there or smt ;)

Ok lah i just realize its being 4 days since i blog so took time to write things, these few days afternoon i on show let my mum watch while i play PSP/watch the show. Then mon i actually went to my ah ma hse and reread alot of comic there. Then y'day my dad suddenly say he wan to make chicken rice. =.= Ok lah it was passable haha. I mean the rice was not fragrant enough cause my mum did not put enough oil in then the sauce for the chicken was not enough so the chicken no taste. Haha i sound like a picky eater. Woops.

Haha tze hock said i was the only person whu go find all my sec sch friends. I dun tink so lorh, ppl like Winnie more than me pls. Haha but then again hers is close friends mine is really like at first i dun really know them that well but since meet up afew times then closer liao. Sec sch were the best time of our life and its saddening if we forget about each other in sec sch. SO HUANG ZHEPENG U NGNT (No Girl No Talk) better find time to come out find us! Lol like he will read my blog liddat.

Being a person is so hard. As the chinese saying goes 做人难. Its hard for us to always understand what others think or feel. Sometimes in the heat of the moment we always do the wrong thing but only realize it afterwards. Control is something we all need but how many of us do have that? Sometimes i realize that i'm being so selfish and unfillial. Whenever my mother wants me to do something i will always say that i'm sian and dun wanna go. That time when me and my bro said we going to my ah ma hse my cousin called and ask if we were going there already and my mum was telling me most likely ahma call my cousin go shengsiong (tzehock ur ex workplace) to carry the ingredients for dinner that night. Ahma is old already and cannot carry heavy stuff. That made me think about what would I do if it was me? Would i have went with my ahma? Or will i give excuses to run off? Why is it that i still stayed in the past thinking that everything is still the same as it is?

Time waits for no one, but to start that first step is the hardest step of all.

Results.

I guess most people will say its not bad le bah... 1A+ 1A 3 B+ with a GPA of 3.7 and accumulative GPA of 3.5 still. But i'm still not happy about it. More like no feeling. Results has no meaning to me. With the hols half gone and me haven done anything more than sit at home or go lib, i tink most things have no meaning to me le. I mean yes this hols met up with alot of ppl that i haven seen for a LONG time. But still most of the things that i'm doing is just for the sake of doing. If u ask me what will i be doing like next sem i won't even know. Suddenly i just feel that i have my head in the clouds for too long, blind to all the things around me.

Then y'day at night i was actually quite pissed off. Just because i didn't move my ass and walk to JP to buy Mac but instead i called for delivery my mum kp till i spend like $50 liddat. Yes its $3 more but its just this 1 time right. The weather was cold, makes me feel even more lazy, even if i walk to jp mac i dun wan to eat there alone and if i take away i still have to eat the things cold so might as well ask them deliver. She kips saying she scrimp and save till siao but here i am wasting money like nobody's business. Ok lorh then i go eat maggi mee for the rest of the hols lah, the maggi brand one 5 pac 1plus or smt. SAVE ENOUGH ANOT.

Can't really help to reflect on how the hell i survive in the past in sec sch especially sec1. Back in sec1 i spend an average of $3 on food A WEEK. I wonder how i live my life back then. Compared to now, well theres no such cheap food already but still i go for the cheapest but most filling food. But i also spend much more on random stuff. Things that i wan to buy, things i have to buy... Have i really changed into a person who spend money unnecessary? I dun tink so but everyday i kip hearing to save save save SAVE THE GOD DAMNED MONEY.

This sucks just go die and eat potato everyday.