Happier stuff

Ok i just noticed my last 2 post damn emo. So i shall not make this into a emo post. In fact i have a happy post today. Well first things first. RIP MJ You have made a legend in this world and people will never forget you.

Ok and another fact that i wan to do RE but i dun understand the question, shit someone give me the email of Lee teck choon. Zzz.

Ok today i went to participate in my friend's I&E event which is actually a food tour. Lol. There were a totally of 14 ppl i tink. We went to payalebar/ tanjongkatong to eat 5 kinds of food. Got soya bean curd, Lor mee, Hokkien mee, Katong laksa and awfully chocolate which is actually ice cream lah. Lol i tink quite fun lah actually. Been so long since i went for anything by myself, well my friend's there too but only him 1 person nia. Wee its a improvement. Haha.

Now i'm trying to rmb wat i wanted to write when i was taking the MRT back home, but can't rmb. Lol. Ok short post and not emo yooo. Haha

Past, Present, Future.

Out of these 3, i think i would be most familiar with past. Since i'm so deeply entrenched in it. I just strongly feel that i'm so stuck with the past that its affecting me moving on to the future. I can't think of doing anything without having anyone with me. What will i do in the future when we all have to continue on our own path? I'll be on my own, will i be able to survive alone?

Now trying to get rid of that MSN SPAM/VIRUS/TROJAN watever. Knn damn irritating. I typing halfway to ppl it dc. Then i sign in 5 sec dc again. My god totally piss me off.

Now i hear that ppl's I&E are already planned and ready to go.... Zzz and ours? Still in lalaland. Zzz THIS SUCKS LAH. JUST FUCKING CHUCK I&E AWAY

Argh today is more than emo already, plus pissed plus stressed plus lost.

Projects

Haiya so many projects to do. JC ppl have to mug like hell while Poly ppl have to do so many projects. Boring life leh. Being too slack this hols i tink. Really do nth at all de leh. Now have to start thinking about all the more irritating projects like I&E again. Tsk the 1 most hateable module. Zzz.

Other than watching KO sanguo these few days, reading manga and talking to ppl, is really do nth sia. Ok at least i got search for RE but thats all. Really have to reflect on myself man....

Everyone is asking about what is my ambition or at least what am i going to do after finishing poly. I have no idea and so was stumped in finding an answer to give them. From the past till now i have always scraped through life without a aim, always settling for the easiest way out. Pri sch was chosen cause it was near my hse and no nid to walk though p5 and p6 nid to take bus since i shifted hse. Sec sch was because my cousin was in it and i could hitch a free ride to sch. Poly was because everyone was going to ngee ann although i chose a course that no one took.

I'm not a person whos prone to take control of things and even my life is sort of controlled by others. I dun have something i want to work towards or aim for and i can't think of something that i like so i can strive for it. I'm not even in a fixed CCA for that matter. Not one that like requires me to go everyweek or smt like that.

Can' wake myself up to face life and the future. Right now i can only look back at my past and try to make the most out of now and not waste it. but failing to i guess.

I tink something that best describe me now is like a piece of bread on the ocean, soon i'll be eaten and nth will be left. No one or Nothing will remain.

Kayaking

Haha today went to Jurong lake to kayak, its actually jurong reservoir lah. Lol so funny lorh i tell u when we kayak the sun dun wan come out. At first when we just went into the water it was damn sunny. Then after awhile it turned cloudy b4 it started drizzling.. Lol but since i dun usually go out into the sun in the first place, i became like a crab like that. Why a crab? Because my skin became red, really red like chilli crab like that. Then the inner arm is like white tofu. So big contrast. Haha.

Overall i tink it was fun lah, since its my first time. I find that usually i will miss going for the first time thingy that everyone will say is fun then go for the second one where ppl will say that its not that gd as the first. Also sometimes i really cannot stand people that likes to ask alot of things, act all enthu and wanna come but when its time for the actual event they just poof gone missing. Pls lah if u not planning to go dun bother asking so much shit question. Not gonna make ppl like u more. Anyway Sorry su chill ok? Lol dun care them lah.

After the kayak went to JP to eat burger king. Which i really dun like now. Most of the things they have i can't eat and the only things i CAN eat aren't really that nice. Zzz. After that came home while yana su boss lihui and yixuan went to shop bah. I actually on com and fell aslp facing the computer. Then my mom came in and AH LEI WHY U SLP HERE??? Shocked me awake sia. My mother also laugh since she saw me jerk awake. Zzzzzzzzzz.

Sometimes making urself scarce is a virtue instead of staying and being a bother.

That got me thinking

Finally the new wardrobe is here. Well its quite nice lah, white colour one and sliding door. As expected the ppl whu were transporting it were china men. I'm not trying to look down on them in case u get the wrong idea. Most of the harder jobs in singapore are usually done by them anyway. My dad was telling me that now all these china men are taking all these jobs, leaving singaporeans with no jobs. He said the older men now all become housedad and look after their grandchildren. I can't really blame him for questioning why the government is letting so many foreigners into singapore.

After thinking about this, i just had this conclusion. The singapore government spent so much money on education and made laws that states all singaporeans must have at least studied till sec sch. After spending so much resources on our people, if we end up doing all these labour jobs that do not utilize wat we have learnt, won't we be wasting all the education? The only problem now is that there is a shortage of those jobs that requires us to use our education. Can't really blame those foreigners that come to singapore to find work.

Haha i'm just trying to write down the rationale of the government so that in the future i won't complain so much.

Still in the afternoon nia nothing much to write about. Maybe tml might have. Wait tml sure have since gonna go kayaking. Wahaha.

Interesting

Hmm today morn haven wake up already got so happening liao. My mother again, because she went downstairs to buy those yellow noodles to cook for lunch also wanted to buy curry puff. Then she choose, 2 in a packet then put one side. Then when she choosing another 2, this person whu just finish paying his stuff walk very near her and then very fluidly took the curry puff that my mum chose and put at the side. Some more my mother haven wake up liddat then see him take also no reaction. The best thing is, the cashier also saw it but he didn't stop that guy. So he effectively stole 2 curry puff. Seriously man some ppl, 80cent nia leh also wan to steal. So poor meh. Go eat grass lah. If he kana caught and its over 2 currypuff that cost 80cents, i tink i really will laugh like siao seriously.

Woots i went to fix my PSP again y'day. Now that the software mod is out for the Psp 3000 so many ppl go buy sia. While waiting for the person to fix my psp already 5 ppl was there to buy sia. Crazy sia. Lucky Zhepeng also going to buy something then i not so lonely can get ppl go with me. Lol but so funny lah. Take so long go Simlim then we spend like 30mins there nia. Go to the shop, decide which one, buy and go back. LOL so efficient. Then me and tzehock after fixing my psp went to JP to eat and to find the spec holder for the kayaking. Haha.

Was quite fun to talk to them after so long. Really miss those days when we always talk cock. With them always coming to my class during recess to talk to me or i go over to find them. Memories are really the only things ppl can't rob u of but it can only be stolen by time. Haha i'm being random again.

Tml new wardrobe coming, but its not mine! Haha so no dif to me. I suppose the only thing i'm looking forward to is the kayaking on fri? Haha. If not really everyday rot at home.

Ah well. Feeling abit sentimental again. Missing my past 5 years. Ahhhh......... May my mind bring the memories back to me and let it stay forever.

So many things happening haha,

First things first, wah lao i finish my EBT e-learning liao then the sms came saying it has been extended for another week. Trying to play with me is it. Lol.Nvm i already submitted it already at least i dun nid to do it anymore.

Then y'day woke up so early to go Ubin for the walk with Andrew. He was a real nice guy though. Can tell that he's really enthu about wildlife. Heard from him that he and some friends stayed overnight there just to do a survey on the animals there i tink. Although it was really unexpected when we had to wait 30mins just to get on the boat to Ubin. The queue was SO LONG. Seriously man. Lol but overall i tink it was quite fun. First time go Ubin leh. Got to see a monitor lizard.I actually stood all the way back from tampines to jurong east. Haha.

This is so frustrating sia i tell u. My PSP the analog stick spoil AGAIN. I dunno if its the quality of their stick or my brother oe me thats making it spoil so much. But cannot be wat i dun play like 24/7 every week. Nvm i' sick of this man. If i fix this last time, and i spoils again, i'm not gonna let my brother play it anymore. Enough is enough.

Sian anyone free to go out with me? Go far east shopping centre again haha. Then maybe we go walk around orchard? If not very lame leh always take mrt spend money go there like 30mins then go back home. ANYONE???????

Feeling weighted down by all the things

I'm suddenly feeling very troubled right now. Ebt reaching a bottleneck sia. I'm thinking of whether am i doing the right thing for it. Then tml still nid to go Ubin at like 11am? Zzz so early. Makes me abit sian sia.

No boss to talk to until at least Monday night or tues morn sia. Boss come back soon plsssss. Wait i tink after the camp she got wat YEE thingy. OMG so still cannot talk to her! Nooooooo.

Sometimes i really feel like going out somewhere just to spend time off instead of at home. But i would be so....... i dunno? Lonely or emo? Haha so weird sia.

Hmm just got to know that some people really just add a girl in msn jsut to ask if they will have sex or smt like that. Wow so fucker sia these ppl. Lol. If any of my friends do that, i dunno sia, will i break off all ties with him? Guess when it happens then i'll know.

Scamming shops. Argh

Wah kao i tell u some shops really damn scammer sia. My parents went to this furniture shop somewhere near jurong west st 13 to buy a new wardrobe. The existing one can't close properly le since its already 15 years old. Then at first they bought 1 which was 96m tall and 5ft wide. Then after reaching home they realize that because of the design of our wall which is actually an indent that is only 84m high, we nid to go change the wardrobe since it won't be able to fit inside the space. Then now she came back and damn pissed. She went there again and the person said that now we got 32 choice, get the 77m one the 82m one. At first my mother wanted the 82m one but guess wat, the person said that if u change to the 82m one, the price remains the same at $950. WTF sia. The wood u use is lesser but the price remains the same, plus u still count the GST on us, in short ur saving on materials and getting more money. Shit u lah. So my mum got the 77m one but the person only dropped 100 off it. Argh stupid shop.

Nvm, wats bought is bought. Wah sian like very busy sia. Sunday must go do stuff for I&E and mon have to hand in EBT e-learning. Busy right after exams. Oh and hope that Boss, Su and Val will have fun in their TICE camp. Lol.

Today so many saddening stuff. Just heard about that Despo and disgusting and stupid and brainless guy from taiwan. So hard up for sex go to the taiwan street find one lah. Taiwan so much bigger than singapore dun tell me u can't find one there instead. Bastard. Knn anyone is singapore so despo and harrass my friend i tell u better watch out. Horny also got a limit ok.

Nabei totally not happy today liao sia. No one to talk crap with anyway. All Mia sia. Noooo someone come back!!!

AIYAH I JUST REALIZE! Boss birthday also nv take picture! Only got her with the cake nia sia! Sian. Lol. June and july noone else birthday le so sian.

Hols this time round i'm really glad that i'm not working if nt i swear i'll go nuts and start rampaging through my house. And my hse is not that big so might instead hurt myself on the wall or smt. >.<

Haha ok lah i'm feeling better talking nonsense. Yippee!

Studying

Lol so funny sia when i saw Valerie's post on everyone not online and her nightmare on not studying and having the test. Super joker. I tink everyone only appear offline nia siol. But i get the feeling that for this CT our clique's studies are not going that well. Hmm Jiayou girls!(Obviously not including me, for dumb dumbs out there)

These few days kip listening to Yes 9.33. I even note down nice songs and go find them. But the stupid and useless web that i'm using to find can only give me songs that are DEFECTIVE. RAWR like suddenly the song will stop for 1 sec or its actually a radio version where u can hear the DJ introducing the song. Zzz

Tml maths exam sia. Wonder why i'm not that afraid of it when i actually failed the last test. Lol. Siao siao man me today.

Thinking of many random stuff today. Really no idea why suddenly think about it. FYI its not emo stuff for a change but rather things of another nature. Haha.

Short post. Ok maybe not that short. >.<

Time reflection

My gosh today i spent the whole day NOT doing anything for my exams and yet i'm blogging. Lol. I dun like to study alone sia but then everyone else likes to study at home, nth i can do =.= That god damn headache is back but at least its not that serious. Still very painful though and making me quite irritated with my whole life. Aiyoh then my cousin still come kajiao me saying "U dun say sian hor when u reach my stage then even worst." Knn when i reach then deal with it lorh. Bloody hell stop harping on ur army crap. Irritating u know.

Trying to think of someplace where i can go to study but i see the lib today like so many people. Like really ALOT ALOT of ppl. Crap lah.

Suddenly really think about this article which says that friendship weakens overtime especially if u dun have any common topic or things to do with each other. U will slowly stop asking wat the other person is doing and eventually forget about them. Will that be the end for the many friends that i made in sec sch? I get the feeling it will be. Everyone's changing and i feel that i'm drifting more and more away from them. Is it just me, but i should have realize. Even when we were in sec sch i was always not doing things with them, haha my own fault bah.

Looking at the class photos in front of my laptop now really made me miss them all alot. Didn't even get to go eat with them during the last gathering. Thought about this line from an anime, Friends needs to be cherished, we must protect our friends. In my case protect our friends is not that applicable so i'm gonna change it to always be there even if they forgot about us.

Tata i tink i should off com and go do ABIT of studying. Lol.

The week b4 CT

Woohoo today RMT test totally Win liao. Is like the things ur suppose to study is 1 heap of info and u nid to filter it through one and i dun understand it so in the end went for the test blur as a sotong. After that we had a field trip to Sembawang Shopping Centre. Then wasted quite ALOT of time there although wat i did there i also forgot. Boring. Then took the MRT home alone. Reminds me of that time when i took the Red line from City hall to Jurong East, i rmb i nearly puke in the end sia. Too long liao.

Next week is CT week, with maths on tues, Water reclaimation tech on wed and Air Quality Monitoring & Control on thurs. Lol all in a row so must study all b4 hand liao siol i not sure CMI. Gonna study over the weekends i guess.

One thing i realize, i really damn competitive on the inside. Or maybe i'm just being egoistic. I cannot stand someone saying bad things about my results one siol. Even if its really damn lousy. =.= This is one thing really have to change also. Must note down. This idiot say my maths lousy results i quite pissed sia that time. Haha i know he joker nia but still.

OH and i must say SORRY BOSS!!! For scolding too many vulgarities today. Lol she nv hear also but i still must apologize.

ARGH i'm telling u NTUC policy became even more crap! My pay got Cut because of the change in policy. Zzz Usually i can get 220 one, but for the last month i only got like 160? SO BIG DIF CAN? Now they say that because u take 15mins break u must leave 15mins later. Then if i dun take the break? Or is shorter? U also cut. Wah kao. Damn pissed sia. Lucky i quit liao if not i sure will quit due to this lorh. WTF. Scam my money.

Break is not for us to rest but for us to work even harder de lorh. Lots of crap things nid to do in the hols which sucks but no choice have to do it. A year that no one likes.