Just when that report has finally being cleared, now another thing has come to replace it. The Sembcorp scholarship ceremony is next TUESDAY and only now then we know the actual date. Mon need to go sign the deed with my auntie and mother which means another half day nid to take leave. ceremony day take leave. And my brillant life feels that i should get another leave due to my whole mother's side wants to go Genting this month. So i'm suppose to get ANOTHER leave. How many leave u expect me to take? I'm already sinking soon with that crap shit Project for my attachment and i have to take so many leave. If i dun even get a B how? U only kip saying wan me to take the schloarship take take take. When i say its so mafan so much additional work u always say u should work hard do this do that. I dun see WHY THE FUCK should i take something that is giving me so much stress and trouble just for that 1 year of assured work. Its not even a confirmed thing.
As time goes by, i continue to feel that taking up this scholarship is a mistake. Perhaps its just me having all the shit together at one shot that make me feel this way. For us already in attachment its a double attachment. If we are like daxino whose attachment should be straight with sembcorp i suppose it wont be so mafan bah? Whu knows but at the very least will have more holiday. Life is hard, whining is something i'm sure to do and yet although i know in the end i have to do it... Sometimes taking the easy way out cross my mind. Maybe just a strawberry person talking.
Taking care of something that has many stages and requires no contamination is so unlikely to happen. The lab is only THAT big/small depending on how u see it. The algae just can't receive enough light also. I clean it wash it try to ensure the pump works and whatever. But in the end the space there is just so small that ANY small movement will change the pump speed. And then everything is screwed up. I know changing the pump spd is SUPPOSE to be easy but in actually fact it isn't. Trying to get ENOUGH algae for the experiment is also another problem. Everyday i have to touch the wastewater and although i kip changing the gloves but always ALWAYS i will have to touch the wastewater until i forgot to change. Then theres contamination, algae dun grow, no results. Where does that leave me? No results, wasting resources, not doing a god job, get a lousy grade.
I really wonder if i can last even till the end of this year.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Sunday, May 16, 2010
F.U.C.K O.F.F
Ok U know what i'm seriously getting so FUCKING PISSED off with that whole CONSTANT NEVER ENDING u gotta work hard crap. WORK WORK WORK WORK WORK. HARD HARD HARD HARD HARD. And then? U supposedly able to enjoy life with ur family. Provided U survive till that is one thing. Haven go bonkers is another. BUT THE MAIN THING IS U GOTTA KNOW HOW U GONNA WORK HARD? Fuck EVERYTHING ALSO DUNO WORK SAI LAH.
That COI, i regret. Regret taking attachment but the biggest thing i regret is taking MBR as my FUCKING choice. 2000 words Report, how do you expect me to write when all i've been doing is the same thing over and over again? Algae informations are not proven to be accurate so not really able to put them in my report anyway. Further more Final report ur supose to EXPAND on it? How to expand when all the thing i'm doing is the GODDAMN SAME THING?
Report is already bad enough but still have to do that stupid presentation. Every 2 week do 1 presentation. Whats the USE? Why can't we be like other ppl in other projects where they have their SO to TELL us what to do so that we dun nid to have this USELESS AND LAME presentation? U know ur kip complaining no results but i VERY MUCH prefer no results. I have to spend everyday in the lab doing the same thing over and over again and yet i can only say it in my report with like 50 words? So what does that leave me with? A student who seems to be slacking in the lab. After doing that same thing i STILL have to organize it into tables and graphs. So what even if its supposedly easy? Still gotta do more work right. More things for him to question and actually i dun understand WHY is it easy. Some of the data needs thinking to go through.
My new post after so long and it just makes me feel so much worst. How am i suppose to go out to work when i break down so easy. I'm just tired of life.
That COI, i regret. Regret taking attachment but the biggest thing i regret is taking MBR as my FUCKING choice. 2000 words Report, how do you expect me to write when all i've been doing is the same thing over and over again? Algae informations are not proven to be accurate so not really able to put them in my report anyway. Further more Final report ur supose to EXPAND on it? How to expand when all the thing i'm doing is the GODDAMN SAME THING?
Report is already bad enough but still have to do that stupid presentation. Every 2 week do 1 presentation. Whats the USE? Why can't we be like other ppl in other projects where they have their SO to TELL us what to do so that we dun nid to have this USELESS AND LAME presentation? U know ur kip complaining no results but i VERY MUCH prefer no results. I have to spend everyday in the lab doing the same thing over and over again and yet i can only say it in my report with like 50 words? So what does that leave me with? A student who seems to be slacking in the lab. After doing that same thing i STILL have to organize it into tables and graphs. So what even if its supposedly easy? Still gotta do more work right. More things for him to question and actually i dun understand WHY is it easy. Some of the data needs thinking to go through.
My new post after so long and it just makes me feel so much worst. How am i suppose to go out to work when i break down so easy. I'm just tired of life.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Haiz i duno whats wrong or right anymore....
So Gd friday was yday, April fools was the day b4... Nth much happened. I only know quite a number of ppl went to qing ming within these 2 days. and today as well. Like derrick whu went to qing ming on his bday. Not like it signifies anything but just find it abit weird.
Hmm so another person has joined the club, no one knows what i'm saying since only i will know. Hmm plus huishi friend so cute got so kua zhang boh. I got so scary? See huishi must be u telling her all those crap that made her have a wrong impression.
Work is a chore which i suppose i die die have to go through. Not planning to get an A already. Suppose u can say that i have given up le bah. Just do whatever that's needed. At least for this period of time... Regrets, can only be regrets and can't really do anything about it. I know you kip saying duno how to help me, but since u can't you dun nid to kip saying since it will only make u feel worst.
Everyone has their own problems and things to do but yet we all show and do thing about it differently. Some complains 24/7(like me). Some binge and hopes to relieve stress(abit also). Others just take it as it comes and still manages to remain cheerful(Kudos to you). Random paragraph as usual.
Recently, i keep thinking of sec sch days. Back at the old sch site with the hill, how all of us would come early to sch and sit at the round table and joke around. Or choir practices where we will be the earliest(be it when we were juniors or seniors since we were ALWAYS early). Even when we shifted to the new sch site we still gather at the tables everyday and chat. Such nice memories. Especially choir practice which was always fun despite being very taxing. Singing on the coach OTW to performances or competitions. I wonder, perhaps in future i will be missing my poly life also. Haha most prob bah.
The past is something we can only cherish and keep but usually thats the hardest thing to do since we tend to forget about them.
Today is a rainy day indeed. Be it weather or moods. Hah.
Hmm so another person has joined the club, no one knows what i'm saying since only i will know. Hmm plus huishi friend so cute got so kua zhang boh. I got so scary? See huishi must be u telling her all those crap that made her have a wrong impression.
Work is a chore which i suppose i die die have to go through. Not planning to get an A already. Suppose u can say that i have given up le bah. Just do whatever that's needed. At least for this period of time... Regrets, can only be regrets and can't really do anything about it. I know you kip saying duno how to help me, but since u can't you dun nid to kip saying since it will only make u feel worst.
Everyone has their own problems and things to do but yet we all show and do thing about it differently. Some complains 24/7(like me). Some binge and hopes to relieve stress(abit also). Others just take it as it comes and still manages to remain cheerful(Kudos to you). Random paragraph as usual.
Recently, i keep thinking of sec sch days. Back at the old sch site with the hill, how all of us would come early to sch and sit at the round table and joke around. Or choir practices where we will be the earliest(be it when we were juniors or seniors since we were ALWAYS early). Even when we shifted to the new sch site we still gather at the tables everyday and chat. Such nice memories. Especially choir practice which was always fun despite being very taxing. Singing on the coach OTW to performances or competitions. I wonder, perhaps in future i will be missing my poly life also. Haha most prob bah.
The past is something we can only cherish and keep but usually thats the hardest thing to do since we tend to forget about them.
Today is a rainy day indeed. Be it weather or moods. Hah.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Traumatised
So its been a month since i updated. So much things have happened. End of year 2, gotten back results, Started attachment, Went out for 1 whole week b4 attachment. Today went to marina barrage to go out with clique and then send const home. Then some crap happened and i now understand fully why she hates her family so much.
Hmm i really dun feel like gng to school already. Everyday is so hectic and busy. Plus i have no time to do ANYTHING. Like hellos even if i dun play games how the hell i suppose to calculate all the results and analyse them plus think of WHY are they wrong and at the same time look for papers on them AND think of how i wan to do my experiment? Hello i only have like what? 5 hours available AFTER WORK and i nid to eat bath and GO HOME. Fuck during work kip asking me to do this do that where got time to do all this kind of thing? Nabei. Then i do wrong calculations u say i have to THINK about what i doing. Do u even give me time to THINK? Pls lah usually 2 people do de work u ask me do (2 of them are skilled lab assistants alreay somemore) and what u expect? We still new at all this right sure make mistakes what nid to say till like i dumb dun think and do aimlessly mah? Fuck i tink i really cannot take it soon lah. Cb.
Ok so long come back post in the end is scolding post. Anyway Koh tze hock when u gng overseas? Tell me again i see whether can at the very least send u off. Haha.
Hmm i really dun feel like gng to school already. Everyday is so hectic and busy. Plus i have no time to do ANYTHING. Like hellos even if i dun play games how the hell i suppose to calculate all the results and analyse them plus think of WHY are they wrong and at the same time look for papers on them AND think of how i wan to do my experiment? Hello i only have like what? 5 hours available AFTER WORK and i nid to eat bath and GO HOME. Fuck during work kip asking me to do this do that where got time to do all this kind of thing? Nabei. Then i do wrong calculations u say i have to THINK about what i doing. Do u even give me time to THINK? Pls lah usually 2 people do de work u ask me do (2 of them are skilled lab assistants alreay somemore) and what u expect? We still new at all this right sure make mistakes what nid to say till like i dumb dun think and do aimlessly mah? Fuck i tink i really cannot take it soon lah. Cb.
Ok so long come back post in the end is scolding post. Anyway Koh tze hock when u gng overseas? Tell me again i see whether can at the very least send u off. Haha.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
What a funny yet dumb thing to happen.
My god, a shock came in the form of a phone bill. When my mother opened the phone bill, she was so shock to see that it was 200plus. I also Xiadao leh i thought talking with constance made the phone bill so high kns. So i faster checked the bill and what did i discover? $124 of it was to Renci charity.... A total of 19calls, 2 $15 and the rest $5. The best thing is when we ask him he even dares to deny it. Like pls lah Sunday afternoon only he's at home alone. If its not him whu else can it be?
The most dumb thing is, he's crying not because he called the number but because we told him that he have to pay for the calls he made. We told him he's gonna pay for $100 and then he cry till like $100 is his lifelong savings and we gonna snatch it from him. My god.
Anyway, today was quite sian. I was totally watching Hi my sweetheart. Chionged 4 eps which took like.....5hrs? Lol i really no nid study liao. Tml gng auntie hse for steamboat since my mother side didnt have one on CNY since alot of my relatives went overseas. Anyway now i love the opening song of HMS alot sia. Can't get it out of my head. =.=
Ok short update. Haha.
The most dumb thing is, he's crying not because he called the number but because we told him that he have to pay for the calls he made. We told him he's gonna pay for $100 and then he cry till like $100 is his lifelong savings and we gonna snatch it from him. My god.
Anyway, today was quite sian. I was totally watching Hi my sweetheart. Chionged 4 eps which took like.....5hrs? Lol i really no nid study liao. Tml gng auntie hse for steamboat since my mother side didnt have one on CNY since alot of my relatives went overseas. Anyway now i love the opening song of HMS alot sia. Can't get it out of my head. =.=
Ok short update. Haha.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Happy CNY ppl!
I know i know i'm like AWOL from this blog liao. Mostly is cause for the past few weeks there's so much crap being thrown around. If i really wrote i tink it will mostly be scolding post. Ah well.
Hmm although i said happy CNY i'm actually late by like 3 days, hahahhaha. Ok so on CNY eve that day went to my father side for steamboat. Joke sia down there watching hai pai tian xing. Then my cousin so funny he die die wan me drink alcohol siol. So drank half a cup of red wine. Sibei bitter sia, but its ok lah. At least i didnt fall aslp after that. Then after that went to meet huishi siqi and congshi go derrick hse. Lol we play cards there until 4 plus then we went to derrick rm chat (b4 that we were downstairs). Then we chatted till 5.30, then left his hse. Then we went to eat mac but had to wait for 30mins first since it open at 6am. Haha.
Then CNY that day went to my father side for bai nian, we went quite late, around afternoon since my auntie say dun nid go so early. Haha. Then after that we went back home, slack abit then went to my auntie de daughter BF de hse which is just beside my ah ma hse. Haha. Then down there eat steam boat again, then play cards. My mother was playing mj with them and she won 60plus, cause she got a half colour mantai. Lol. But i lost 10plus dollar though. Play $1 also can lose till 10plus, best man. Dealer got a double ace, a black jack, plus i kip getting dumb cards like 12/13/14 then i draw ALWAYS draw a 10 or picture card. =.=lll Haha quite bu shuang since losing in cards and dota and watever since cny is here. Not a gd start sia. XD
Then today was just a fun day lorh. XD So short line haha.
Ok then right here right now i wan to apologize to Timothy Tan and Valerie Chuan for saying some untrue and insensitive comments. Although i heard some wrong things which made me made those comments but telling it to other ppl without confirming if it is real anot is my fault still and i'm sorry for causing any damage to your reputation or anything. In future if there's anything i swear i will ask ur in the face and not say false things. Forgive me pls and plsssss remain friends with me?? Tim pls dun be angry ok?
Ok with that done, i tink i shall end this post. Shall update again soon bah since i free now.
Hmm although i said happy CNY i'm actually late by like 3 days, hahahhaha. Ok so on CNY eve that day went to my father side for steamboat. Joke sia down there watching hai pai tian xing. Then my cousin so funny he die die wan me drink alcohol siol. So drank half a cup of red wine. Sibei bitter sia, but its ok lah. At least i didnt fall aslp after that. Then after that went to meet huishi siqi and congshi go derrick hse. Lol we play cards there until 4 plus then we went to derrick rm chat (b4 that we were downstairs). Then we chatted till 5.30, then left his hse. Then we went to eat mac but had to wait for 30mins first since it open at 6am. Haha.
Then CNY that day went to my father side for bai nian, we went quite late, around afternoon since my auntie say dun nid go so early. Haha. Then after that we went back home, slack abit then went to my auntie de daughter BF de hse which is just beside my ah ma hse. Haha. Then down there eat steam boat again, then play cards. My mother was playing mj with them and she won 60plus, cause she got a half colour mantai. Lol. But i lost 10plus dollar though. Play $1 also can lose till 10plus, best man. Dealer got a double ace, a black jack, plus i kip getting dumb cards like 12/13/14 then i draw ALWAYS draw a 10 or picture card. =.=lll Haha quite bu shuang since losing in cards and dota and watever since cny is here. Not a gd start sia. XD
Then today was just a fun day lorh. XD So short line haha.
Ok then right here right now i wan to apologize to Timothy Tan and Valerie Chuan for saying some untrue and insensitive comments. Although i heard some wrong things which made me made those comments but telling it to other ppl without confirming if it is real anot is my fault still and i'm sorry for causing any damage to your reputation or anything. In future if there's anything i swear i will ask ur in the face and not say false things. Forgive me pls and plsssss remain friends with me?? Tim pls dun be angry ok?
Ok with that done, i tink i shall end this post. Shall update again soon bah since i free now.
Monday, February 8, 2010
GO AWAY LAH.
U wan to share house with me in future. Fuck STAY AT UR OWN HSE LAH GO AWAY. WHU THE HELL WAN TO AFTER THIS LAH. CB.
I WAN MY OWN GODDAMN HSE.
I WAN MY OWN GODDAMN HSE.
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