To you my friend, may you rest in peace.

On 24th Dec, i saw from Facebook that a primary school friend of mine, Glen Chia, had passed away. I thought it was joke, but seeing so many people posting RIP on his wall and another primary school friend confirming it, i really felt a heavy sadness. I know people might ask "But hey he's ur PRI sch friend, were u guys even in touch etc etc." To me i think it doesn't matter, since once upon a time we were friends. It is only a courtesy that we do our best to at least give him our last respect. Although i couldn't enter his wake due to religious issues, i went to the area beside his wake and paid my respect, i hoped he had received it. He was a kind person whom i believed had many friends who loved him. I believe that he must have been facing very difficult problems.

The only and clearest memory i had of him was when some of us(i can't rmb who already)went to his house to play Little Fighter2 on his computer. I rmb the 4 of us, all squeezed tgt and playing on the same keypad. Back then i didn't have anything and playing little fighter2 was already a great enjoyment. I will always kip this piece of memory with me, to remind me that once i had a friend called Glen who left before me but he will never be forgotten.

To you, my friend, I hope you will have a safe journey to wherever u want to be and maybe u be happy wherever you are. Rest In Peace. From your Primary sch friend Tan Wei Lei.

Death to all that oppose Homework

Well long weekend is retarded stupid and fucked up. I rather DON'T HAVE THAT FUCKING LONG WEEKEND and have lesser RETARDED WORK THAT I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO DO. Cheebye.


I myself felt the difference in my attitude this semester. But i doubt its gonna change much or even soon. The max is i must control and not let it harm other people. I think i need some cheap yet easily disposed of and easily bought stuff. So that i can throw them when i so angry. The thing is, i duno am i angry at the work or at the me that duno how to do that work.

"to journey into the unknown is a form of courage". Wanna take a guess at what i mean? Hah. Eat shit long weekend.

Stuck at 205 or thats the max blogger can go?

Duno i keep seeing number of posts at 205. Is that the max for blogger? Was reading my previous post and realize that its totally incoherent. Joke. Maybe its cause i can be talking about 3 different things in one paragraphs.

Today deepavali, stayed at home and rotted. Duno why my internet being retarded and dropping to 1mbs. Can't help but think that its a method singtel use to force people to upgrade their broadband.. From a 54mbps to 1 mbps?? Cannot be right. Or is my router cocking up liaoz? Basically internet being screwed. Simple.

I think i'm having a very serious bout of anger problems. Whenever i'm doing a particular module i will lose my temper one. Fuck man so stress over it. Duno why. Work is a chore and studying is a chore. Being a human is a chore. Be an ant queen is the best, u just nid to kip laying eggs and ur serviced all the time. Just that u can't move.

Tomorrow gonna go const house do that ECM project. Dun even know if can finish anot at the rate we going. Still nid to find examples for the IWT. Feel like dying. Go bungee jump and cut off the safety line or rubber band whatever u call it. Can't sleep well nowadays. Cannot slp early and wake up early.

My computer also very hot. Wonder whats wrong. No wait more like what's NOT wrong. Haiz

Weird?

Ehhh weird i swear i thought i posted on the day we started school? Funny... Hmm oh well. YAY I have such GAY LUCK AT MH TODAY!!!! I caught TEN Primal mouse from 4am to 6pm. Considering the catch rate was 23% ITS GAY! Lol.

Ok since that last post was mysteriously gone.... School this semester is gonna destroy me. At least 2 modules i cannot seem to comprehend. Groups this time round was kinda chaotic... So fast paced and soon tests will be coming?? Hmm saw that daxino and liping went for the Hippos AGM. Lol but the few of us nv go. So bad.

I really don't know whats wrong with me anymore. I can't understand what the teacher is talking. I can't focus after 2 hours of listening to them talking. How to survive this last semester? Haiya.

Just thinking that everyone has their own habits and feelings. Sometimes we tend to take things for granted and leave it to other people to solve. Short term we gain from it but eventually people will get angry and start to develop bad feelings. We should all reflect and not take things for granted anymore.

Plus on a side note today maybe cause MH so heng my slipper decided to gave up on me. At least its before i enter the MRT station. So went to BATA to buy a $5 slipper. Cheapo right haha. Oh well.

Haiz good luck to all Third Year students, no matter NP SP RP TP or NYP.

Bored as usual

And there goes another 1 month since my last update. This last month nth much happened. Got back INT6 results. Then see my next semester timetable seems so tiring 3 days start 8 am and 4 days end at 6 pm. Then inbetween there's like either 2 or 3 hours break. Man what a waste of time. Sucks. Woah the winds so strong nowadays at my house, weird.

Saw from Facebook that metinee came back to singapore today but seems like she's going back on monday. So sad hope she enjoy her short trip here at singapore to catch up with everyone. Haha come to think of it in facebook primary school friends add me and i can't recognize them sia. Sian like so failure liddat. X(

Today gonna go out to meet constance at 3 at orchard. Then after go esplanade foodcourt(got such a place huhh??) to meet poly clique go eat dinner. (like all of us were saying we're all broke) Then tml have to go till toapayoh to meet Financial consultant to get my policy documents. God so far man.

Then sunday will be going msia KL for a study trip. Will go to a uni there and putrajaya wetlands and petronas twin tower. Taking train back home siol. Hope it won't be too uncomfortable. Lol. Shall buy things for people. Pray my budget enough for all if not will buy useless stuff for them. HAH.

Ok i tink i can stop here le since run of things to crap. Hahahaa. Hope everyone have a eventful day!

Wow

Nearly 2 months didn't blog le. Const kip nagging me to write my blog whenever i feel bored. Just now went to lib return book and go JP buy bubble tea and did some hanging on the chin up bar. Made me so tired sia. Some auntie really very despicable sia. The toilet at the interchange nids to pay money mah. Then i tink she nv pay and go in, when she come out the toilet cleaner was calling that auntie to pay then the auntie act take out wallet then she look and say "aiyah my bus come le" then she faster chiong off. =.= 20 cents also dun wan pay sia.

Nowadays feels so... I duno.. Weird? When there's work i dun feel like doing but when there's no work i feel bad for taking the money without doing anything while yana is working like madddd. Now just waiting for the results to be announced at 1st 0ct. Plus now is training for NAPFA liaoz. Well personally i'm fine with both either going in early 2months or smt lah. More like i dun tink i can train till a silver within such a short time. Haha.

So many things happened within this 2 months. Went for pamela NUS science bash, go out with so many diff goup of ppl to celebrate my birthday, bought couple ring for us, stayed at loft. Haha actually have alot of things i can write just that i lazy and dun have the format to write. Tml have to go help give out flyers on environmental.... stuff? Lol and then sian when i send const home i no mrt to go home since JE and clementi stations are not in service this wkend. How to go home sia?

Ok i dun wan to write anymore. Maybe now that i started to write again i might write more often since i'm so free nowadays with really NTH to do. BBS (Be Back Soon!)

Whenever i like it.

So i'm back to blog since just dun feel so good now. Last week was quite busy plus slping late yet i kip waking up early on wkends made me even more cranky. Then just now heard some things that my mother was saying to my father made me even more sian. Plus my stupid bro just can't shut up at the wrong time.

Ok first things first, left 1 more month to go b4 its the end of attachment. I dun really feel much from it. Just that final report is due soon(draft) and must start thinking of presentation. My project seems to be going high profile since pamela said she nid good results to write a paper. So gonna be quite busy this coming wk too. But then now still ok bah since i was left in peace for at least 3 weeks. No one to ask bout how am i doing. Duno is that a good or bad thing.

Heard bout my mother saying how my auntie was saying we should have rent out our room. They kip saying that we have already paid finish our home loan so we dun have so much thing needed to pay. Well so what if we finish the house loan? No nid to pay for other things? Food? Money drop from the sky? If u stay in the same house for more than 10 yrs OF COURSE u would have paid finish the home loan le can? Say so much how would u feel if u have to rent a room out to someone else u dun know? Somemore our rooms are all very near to each other so its very uneasy can? Although my mother says they 'outsiders see it clearer' but if they are wearing coloured lens then i dun tink its much clearer anyway. =.=

Then right after when my mother is quite upset already my stupid and ultimately dumb brother JUST had to mention about the carrot cake that we didn't finish this morn. When ppl dun answer him he just kip asking and asking. How stupid can a person get? Can't he get this into his thick head? When ppl dun wanna scold him he kips asking, when ppl scold him he will complain ppl scold him. And his complain is those fucking rude and continous complain de. This morn also. He wan to buy the Mr bean strawberry soya milk which is $3.00(with coupon). So he digging money from his piggy. He took out 3 one dollar coin when he has like SOOOO many small coins. Of course is ask him to at least take like 1 dollar of small coin then his piggy more space mah. Then he " Mother SAY MUST bring 3 one dollar coin. MOTHER SAY ONE. SHE SAY ONE. X1000000" He can't even fucking count 1 dollar of small coins. So i just snatch 1 of the coin and ask him take 2 50cent. He still fucking complain, until i shout at him if not enough i pay then he diam. How idiot can a person get?

Made my specs. The frame is so different from my usual one that i confirm won't be used to it de lorh. Cost me $280... Cause the lens is high density one or smt. i have 800plus myopia and 300 plus astigma for my right eye and 200plus myopia and 200 plus astigma for my left eye. Its already like that in sec sch so not surprised. So if my specs spoil pls understand if i knock into you. (Hehe i should try that sometimes. Ok thats so tiko nvm.)

Haiya sian already. Tml is another busy day. Sucks.

Msia trip

Hmm so finally i drag myself here to blog on my Msia trip to Genting. Frankly speaking i dun feel happy at all. I basically wasted 3 days in my life outside of singapore, end of story. Well maybe also enjoy natural aircon but thats about it. I didn't play in the theme parks, too young to go into the casino... PLUS my PSP couldn't be used due to unforeseen circumstances so i can only twiddle my thumbs to spend time away. =.= So uber sian.

Ok so we woke up at 4.30am and my uncle came to fetch us at 5plus. The coach picked us up at CCK beside lot 1. We took the WTS travels platinum deluxe where each seat comes with a TV and games(which sucks dun even have mario wth?) But then the shows were ok bah since i got to watch harry potter and the order of the phoenix. Haha. Then we reach Genting at around 12pm. Had to wait till 2pm in order to check in and so we went to eat at burger king since that was the only place that had seats. Alot of people there. Oh i forgot to mention, there were a total of 14 of us. My grandma, grandpa, first aunt, fourth aunt and her husband, fifth aunt and husband and youngest son, sixth aunt with her husband son and daughter, seventh aunt and my mother bro and I lorh. Ok i tink is 15 but i tink my cousin too young so dun count. Haha. Then after that we went to take the cable car down to somewhere and shop. First time on cable car is seriously abit scary especially when going down since at the start its PLUNGE down one lorh wtf. Scary. Then went back up and played the arcade. Then go eat dinner at coffee bean. My seventh aunt treat hoho.

Hmm on Sat morn we went to Old town white coffee located at the top near Hotel Highland.. Or was it genting? Either lah oh and we were staying at First world hotel lvl 24 the highest. Lol. Then after that went to walk abit, then go back hotel slack and watch TV. Then we went to eat dinner very early at 5pm at someplace with the name mushroom farm. But seriously speaking the food was GOOD. Damn nice. Went there eat cause its father's day and my sixth aunt son de bday. So zhun lorh haha. The place is quite famous i tink since when we were going back the number of ppl going there is STAGGERING. Its just like singapore MRT situation except at there its van instead of mrt. Seriously if the driver nv stop them we dun even nid to get down man. Kao eh. Then jiu same lorh watch tv stone then slp. Haha no life.

Last day in genting, woke up and went to eat at Merrybrown. Did i spell correctly? Anyway after that went to walk abit then go back room pack up, then jiu check out le lorh. Then bought starbucks coffee and drink which was a mistake since it made me kinda carsick. Too full then the bus trip quite long. Haha. Then jiu reach singapore and took taxi home.

Wee done. Can't believe i actually did it. So lazy de me actually did it. Oh yah and to my clique and people, look for me for gifts. First come first served. But Chua Ming Xuan u better come look for me i got a good present for u. HAHA. Ok long post since 154547569670 years so power to ppl that actually finish reading this. Have fun in hols or attachment or whatever u doing now!

Away to M'sia!

Will be away to Genting, Malaysia from Friday till Sunday! Hope i dun be bored till i go crazy. I'm crazy enough as it is now. Haiz. Nowadays everyday is a bore. Doing the same thing over and over again is not my kind of job man. I'm so easy bored. Actually i'm quite power that i manage to stand it till 4months before i reach this point where everything becomes automatic and a chore.

Ah man going out to eat is so mafan. Zzz. Strangely enough i dun feel happy although i'm going on a trip. Sianz. Someone saveeee meeeee....... Haha. K lah will blog on what happen in msia de bah. most likely.

Still abit pissed off.

Wah kao eh i tink i went to the toilet 4 times in a span of 4 hours. Wtf. Ok start with my past few wks de happening bah. Last week was busy handling Sembcorp Scholarship video which i suppose ppl that saw my previous post should know. I must admit back then i really am so stupid and lazy. But after everything is over i feel that i have learnt something from it. Mainly that 'My mother says, if u don't work, u dun get paid/rewards' Meaning that for the money i get i need to work for it. Well i hope to find a career in Sembcorp too so we shall see shall we?

Ok then yday went out with peifen junhua mx tzehock and shiva. We went to the astons at the cathy to have lunch. Its my first time there and sadly i was very disappointed by it. Not by the food but at the way the shop is being ran. Story telling time! So we reach there, queued and when it reach our turn the girl taking order was saying there's 8 pieces of chicken left, so i ordered black pepper fish. However she said they had ran out of fish. So i have to change to pork chop. Then when we went in, another girl came and told me they had only 1 pork chop so i have to change. So i changed to seafood spaghetti and guess what? After 10 sec she came back sheepishly... But hey i'm not blaming her shes just a waitress. So i had no choice, either beef or lamb. So i chose beef(cause lamb shop is a horrifying 19.90) BUT ALSO NO BEEF! HOLY OMFGBBQ RIGHT? Sadly everyone have their food so its too late to leave, so i had to eat the horrendous 19.90 lamb chop. =.= Basically i ordered EVERY type of food they had in the menu. In the end tze hock and mx helped me to negotiate with the manager and he write off our drinks which added up to 5bucks, so i still had to pay 15bucks. Thats still twice the amount of money than the rest and i'm not even full if not for peifen giving me her chicken.

My thoughts is that if u know that ur gonna run out of supplies, couldn't u have open abit later or something? I know it will affect the shop abit but i seriously feel that IF they are using this as a chance to get rid of the expensive items then its too much lorh. Whats more when we leaving it seems their supplies have arrived. How would the customer feel? I can tell you if the next time i go there is STILL this problem i will write a complain letter and shoot flaming lightning icy arrow at the manager.

Ah well. In conclusion first experience at Astons, FAIL.

Sembcorp Sort of over!

Yay the video that we made! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wsJYjrsO24A. Haha!

I think until this whole YEAR is over will i stop being so emoish. Emoish sad pissed whatever.

Just when that report has finally being cleared, now another thing has come to replace it. The Sembcorp scholarship ceremony is next TUESDAY and only now then we know the actual date. Mon need to go sign the deed with my auntie and mother which means another half day nid to take leave. ceremony day take leave. And my brillant life feels that i should get another leave due to my whole mother's side wants to go Genting this month. So i'm suppose to get ANOTHER leave. How many leave u expect me to take? I'm already sinking soon with that crap shit Project for my attachment and i have to take so many leave. If i dun even get a B how? U only kip saying wan me to take the schloarship take take take. When i say its so mafan so much additional work u always say u should work hard do this do that. I dun see WHY THE FUCK should i take something that is giving me so much stress and trouble just for that 1 year of assured work. Its not even a confirmed thing.

As time goes by, i continue to feel that taking up this scholarship is a mistake. Perhaps its just me having all the shit together at one shot that make me feel this way. For us already in attachment its a double attachment. If we are like daxino whose attachment should be straight with sembcorp i suppose it wont be so mafan bah? Whu knows but at the very least will have more holiday. Life is hard, whining is something i'm sure to do and yet although i know in the end i have to do it... Sometimes taking the easy way out cross my mind. Maybe just a strawberry person talking.

Taking care of something that has many stages and requires no contamination is so unlikely to happen. The lab is only THAT big/small depending on how u see it. The algae just can't receive enough light also. I clean it wash it try to ensure the pump works and whatever. But in the end the space there is just so small that ANY small movement will change the pump speed. And then everything is screwed up. I know changing the pump spd is SUPPOSE to be easy but in actually fact it isn't. Trying to get ENOUGH algae for the experiment is also another problem. Everyday i have to touch the wastewater and although i kip changing the gloves but always ALWAYS i will have to touch the wastewater until i forgot to change. Then theres contamination, algae dun grow, no results. Where does that leave me? No results, wasting resources, not doing a god job, get a lousy grade.

I really wonder if i can last even till the end of this year.

F.U.C.K O.F.F

Ok U know what i'm seriously getting so FUCKING PISSED off with that whole CONSTANT NEVER ENDING u gotta work hard crap. WORK WORK WORK WORK WORK. HARD HARD HARD HARD HARD. And then? U supposedly able to enjoy life with ur family. Provided U survive till that is one thing. Haven go bonkers is another. BUT THE MAIN THING IS U GOTTA KNOW HOW U GONNA WORK HARD? Fuck EVERYTHING ALSO DUNO WORK SAI LAH.

That COI, i regret. Regret taking attachment but the biggest thing i regret is taking MBR as my FUCKING choice. 2000 words Report, how do you expect me to write when all i've been doing is the same thing over and over again? Algae informations are not proven to be accurate so not really able to put them in my report anyway. Further more Final report ur supose to EXPAND on it? How to expand when all the thing i'm doing is the GODDAMN SAME THING?

Report is already bad enough but still have to do that stupid presentation. Every 2 week do 1 presentation. Whats the USE? Why can't we be like other ppl in other projects where they have their SO to TELL us what to do so that we dun nid to have this USELESS AND LAME presentation? U know ur kip complaining no results but i VERY MUCH prefer no results. I have to spend everyday in the lab doing the same thing over and over again and yet i can only say it in my report with like 50 words? So what does that leave me with? A student who seems to be slacking in the lab. After doing that same thing i STILL have to organize it into tables and graphs. So what even if its supposedly easy? Still gotta do more work right. More things for him to question and actually i dun understand WHY is it easy. Some of the data needs thinking to go through.

My new post after so long and it just makes me feel so much worst. How am i suppose to go out to work when i break down so easy. I'm just tired of life.

Haiz i duno whats wrong or right anymore....

So Gd friday was yday, April fools was the day b4... Nth much happened. I only know quite a number of ppl went to qing ming within these 2 days. and today as well. Like derrick whu went to qing ming on his bday. Not like it signifies anything but just find it abit weird.

Hmm so another person has joined the club, no one knows what i'm saying since only i will know. Hmm plus huishi friend so cute got so kua zhang boh. I got so scary? See huishi must be u telling her all those crap that made her have a wrong impression.

Work is a chore which i suppose i die die have to go through. Not planning to get an A already. Suppose u can say that i have given up le bah. Just do whatever that's needed. At least for this period of time... Regrets, can only be regrets and can't really do anything about it. I know you kip saying duno how to help me, but since u can't you dun nid to kip saying since it will only make u feel worst.

Everyone has their own problems and things to do but yet we all show and do thing about it differently. Some complains 24/7(like me). Some binge and hopes to relieve stress(abit also). Others just take it as it comes and still manages to remain cheerful(Kudos to you). Random paragraph as usual.

Recently, i keep thinking of sec sch days. Back at the old sch site with the hill, how all of us would come early to sch and sit at the round table and joke around. Or choir practices where we will be the earliest(be it when we were juniors or seniors since we were ALWAYS early). Even when we shifted to the new sch site we still gather at the tables everyday and chat. Such nice memories. Especially choir practice which was always fun despite being very taxing. Singing on the coach OTW to performances or competitions. I wonder, perhaps in future i will be missing my poly life also. Haha most prob bah.

The past is something we can only cherish and keep but usually thats the hardest thing to do since we tend to forget about them.

Today is a rainy day indeed. Be it weather or moods. Hah.

Traumatised

So its been a month since i updated. So much things have happened. End of year 2, gotten back results, Started attachment, Went out for 1 whole week b4 attachment. Today went to marina barrage to go out with clique and then send const home. Then some crap happened and i now understand fully why she hates her family so much.

Hmm i really dun feel like gng to school already. Everyday is so hectic and busy. Plus i have no time to do ANYTHING. Like hellos even if i dun play games how the hell i suppose to calculate all the results and analyse them plus think of WHY are they wrong and at the same time look for papers on them AND think of how i wan to do my experiment? Hello i only have like what? 5 hours available AFTER WORK and i nid to eat bath and GO HOME. Fuck during work kip asking me to do this do that where got time to do all this kind of thing? Nabei. Then i do wrong calculations u say i have to THINK about what i doing. Do u even give me time to THINK? Pls lah usually 2 people do de work u ask me do (2 of them are skilled lab assistants alreay somemore) and what u expect? We still new at all this right sure make mistakes what nid to say till like i dumb dun think and do aimlessly mah? Fuck i tink i really cannot take it soon lah. Cb.

Ok so long come back post in the end is scolding post. Anyway Koh tze hock when u gng overseas? Tell me again i see whether can at the very least send u off. Haha.

What a funny yet dumb thing to happen.

My god, a shock came in the form of a phone bill. When my mother opened the phone bill, she was so shock to see that it was 200plus. I also Xiadao leh i thought talking with constance made the phone bill so high kns. So i faster checked the bill and what did i discover? $124 of it was to Renci charity.... A total of 19calls, 2 $15 and the rest $5. The best thing is when we ask him he even dares to deny it. Like pls lah Sunday afternoon only he's at home alone. If its not him whu else can it be?
The most dumb thing is, he's crying not because he called the number but because we told him that he have to pay for the calls he made. We told him he's gonna pay for $100 and then he cry till like $100 is his lifelong savings and we gonna snatch it from him. My god.

Anyway, today was quite sian. I was totally watching Hi my sweetheart. Chionged 4 eps which took like.....5hrs? Lol i really no nid study liao. Tml gng auntie hse for steamboat since my mother side didnt have one on CNY since alot of my relatives went overseas. Anyway now i love the opening song of HMS alot sia. Can't get it out of my head. =.=

Ok short update. Haha.

Happy CNY ppl!

I know i know i'm like AWOL from this blog liao. Mostly is cause for the past few weeks there's so much crap being thrown around. If i really wrote i tink it will mostly be scolding post. Ah well.

Hmm although i said happy CNY i'm actually late by like 3 days, hahahhaha. Ok so on CNY eve that day went to my father side for steamboat. Joke sia down there watching hai pai tian xing. Then my cousin so funny he die die wan me drink alcohol siol. So drank half a cup of red wine. Sibei bitter sia, but its ok lah. At least i didnt fall aslp after that. Then after that went to meet huishi siqi and congshi go derrick hse. Lol we play cards there until 4 plus then we went to derrick rm chat (b4 that we were downstairs). Then we chatted till 5.30, then left his hse. Then we went to eat mac but had to wait for 30mins first since it open at 6am. Haha.

Then CNY that day went to my father side for bai nian, we went quite late, around afternoon since my auntie say dun nid go so early. Haha. Then after that we went back home, slack abit then went to my auntie de daughter BF de hse which is just beside my ah ma hse. Haha. Then down there eat steam boat again, then play cards. My mother was playing mj with them and she won 60plus, cause she got a half colour mantai. Lol. But i lost 10plus dollar though. Play $1 also can lose till 10plus, best man. Dealer got a double ace, a black jack, plus i kip getting dumb cards like 12/13/14 then i draw ALWAYS draw a 10 or picture card. =.=lll Haha quite bu shuang since losing in cards and dota and watever since cny is here. Not a gd start sia. XD

Then today was just a fun day lorh. XD So short line haha.

Ok then right here right now i wan to apologize to Timothy Tan and Valerie Chuan for saying some untrue and insensitive comments. Although i heard some wrong things which made me made those comments but telling it to other ppl without confirming if it is real anot is my fault still and i'm sorry for causing any damage to your reputation or anything. In future if there's anything i swear i will ask ur in the face and not say false things. Forgive me pls and plsssss remain friends with me?? Tim pls dun be angry ok?

Ok with that done, i tink i shall end this post. Shall update again soon bah since i free now.

GO AWAY LAH.

U wan to share house with me in future. Fuck STAY AT UR OWN HSE LAH GO AWAY. WHU THE HELL WAN TO AFTER THIS LAH. CB.

I WAN MY OWN GODDAMN HSE.

Another week has passed.

So i just realized that the last post i did was when i went to gym on LAST sat. Lol i actually thought was yday sia. Omg.

So yday went to CCK gym again, with wx tim and ernest. Wx really superman sia. Somemore got all the wat glove lah strap lah etc. Lol professional gymer. But overall really have to thank him lah i mean he really help me out in telling me all the diff things i should do for which muscles, although most of it i cant do. LOL.

Then at night went to JP to meet up with mx peifen shiva and tze hock. Lol we sat at the pizza hut damn long lah. After that we went to starbucks to continue chatting. Talked about quite alot of things sia, well they talked about alot of things. I dun really keep up with css info so nth to contribute lala.

Then today i just stayed at home. Was actually quite moody i suppose. Guess with people being so sad and angry me being moody is just not that impt. Hahahah. I miss my friends already. I mean my sec sch ones ah, poly ones tml will see them already. LOL. Hope that sad people will cheer up and angry people will relax more.

Finally made my first trip to the gym after so long

Haha today went to CCK gym with Tim val and ernest. Woke up like quite early then took MRT to JE and went to a bus stop to wait for Tim to fetch me, with val of course. Then went to pick up Ernest. Then went to the gym where there was ALOT of ppl. Like omg? Haha. But we manage to get one of the machine and did... our chest muscle? I tink so. Hmm i forgot how heavy i went to, nearly same as tim bah until the 12.5Kg one. Got inclined one and the lie down flat one. Then after that i went to do an assortment of other things while the 2 of them continue to train their chest and biceps with weights. Val was cycling and running the whole while. Haha.

Then after that went to eat wonton mee at JE near ernest hse. Nice sia the noodle. No wonder tim wanted to go eat. Lol. Then after that went off to take Mrt home. Then stoned in front of computer till now. Haha. Was chatting with Mx also. Then play dumb game like Fate of the dragon(3kingdom game)

Hmm was just thinking, can we ever truly remain friends with our first love? In a way especially if you did alot of things with them, will we be able to set aside those feelings or thoughts and remain as PURE friends? Or will we only try to appear that we remain as friends when in fact the friendship has already reached a stage where it will always be weird? Sometimes i can't help but feel that people are selfish and unreasonable. We will always see what our friends do as smt that will be acceptable while wat others do will be unforgivable. How can u expect someone to remain friends with their ex after they know about all the things the other person did? If u at least say it until such like maybe can ur remain friends after sometime or smt at least its still understandable. Its only awhile only and somemore u know wat that person(ex) did to hurt the other party yet u expect them to remain friends?

I understand what they are trying to do but hey the way ur doing is abit wrong u know. Psychoing(be it visible or invisble) is still not right ok. Especially if U are the cause of it. =.= Haha if u dun understand dun worry its normal no one can understand wat i'm saying half the time. Genius are lonely people. *cough cough* Ok dun bomb me i got my retribution see i coughing already.

Hmm i wanna read storybook now sia MX FASTER GO BUY THE BOOK!!!!! AND LEND ME READ FIRST SINCE U READ LIKE A SNAIL!!!!! Haha Have a good weekend people.

I really hate going out to search for clothes.

Hmm although i said i went out to find clothes. I just dun like all the clothes that i see. I'm lazy to type it out here though. Lol too bad.

Oh yah i said i will continue my post from y'day. Hmm kinda forgot wat i wanna write actually. Ah yes i just sort of rmb. Even now when i think about my sch life, i still kinda dun believe that we were all so small and cute back then. In primary sch those days everything was about studying for PSLE and then playing hide and seek or catching during recess. Then as we move on the sec sch, ok in sec1 its about the same as pri sch still play those games but as we continue on to sec 2/3/4 its slowly changed to going out with friends, stay in sch study(sec4 lah i know, not sec 2/3) and then chionging CCAs.

Then now in poly we all just go to sch, stone/listen/study/slack/stress over all those craps. Then we have to be so irritating to each other and shoot bombs/knives at each other. Cmon man where is the love? Shooting should only be reserved for guys going to army AFTER poly, not during poly and also not by people AT other people. Ok i'm being lame but i like. Wahahah.

Ok basically i thought about all this cause i just suddenly realize that when we finally find our other half, be it now or in future, we would have missed out all these things that they have done. For some perhaps their past was even shared with another person. Somehow i just feel that its such a loss not being able to spend those time tgt with them as we all pass those impt milestones. Be it PSLE, O lvls, Alvls or Grad from poly(haven happen lah). Especially so if those milestones were spent with another person.

But as quoted from an ordinary person whu gave me this EXTRA ordinary words, "all couples got their own individual memories that nobody can replace. u must accept that those were their memories. u are suppose to and will create memories to belong to only u and her. these takes time, and shd never rush thru. these are the most treasured part of a relationship." Now thats wat i call an extraordinary insight of life. Haha. Hmm although this saying doesn't REALLY specifically refer to the studies area but hey, its a general thing! Lol Wanted to write it down here cause i really nid it to remind myself. Also to let others see and to help them in any way.

Ok i tink i exhausted my blogging spirit liao. Gonna be some times b4 i will blog again bah. Lol. Bye and thanks for the saying again, Haha.

Finally I'm Reborn!

Haha i tink i'm being so lame. But watever at least WSH is done. Hmm its still ok bah in the end we manage to do all the things. Was kind of scared that we might not finish in time. Well Wed is WMP liao, another presentation. So sian can. Wow heard from hock that his CMI laptop nid $1900(not too sure) to recover the data. I wish him all the best in getting the things he nid from his friends.

Hmm now listening to Radio on com. So fun. Interesting sia. Now shall listen to radio everyday if i can. Lol I find that radio is so much better than the songs we have in mp3 because at least we can hear people talking on air and there is interaction of people. And some of the things they say is really so funny.

Anyway today's post de topic is not on all these lah. Suddenly thought of this topic when on the way home. Was just wondering how each and everyone of us were in secondary sch or even primary school. All of us had different lives, with different friends and very much different kind of dreams. Yet here we are in the same place due to maybe ur own choice or NOT ur own choice (for those that kana 2nd choice and below). The fact is we are all tgt now and we have already spent 1.6 years tgt. Soon we will be spending 0.5 year away from each other with attachment and whatnots. Then its the last sem b4 we will have to go on and lead our own lives, our own paths.

*To be continued i nid to go slp now.*

Stress is a word, yet its a big feeling.

Dun really have the mood to come blog actually. Maybe cause now i really sick and tired of WSH already. Its sort of worst than SHWM and CWT project somehow. With WSH its like everyone duno wat to do EXACTLY and then all do different things plus we dun really have the time to ask him already since we gonna present to him TML?? Like wat the hell everyone chionging their guts out for SHWM and CWT just last fri and right away we have another project to do.

Yawnz say watever u wan about me slacking and not doing it early but we all have different things occupying our time. Games is one thing but some other things ur just dun understand why i have to fret over about. Sometimes its just that i can't help myself to think about it and with those incidents kip happening(well in a way the person involved is dumb and a** also) its just not making it better. I can't be like other ppl whu say "Ok today must do this that this" then they really can do one leh. I'm a slow starter can then slow start liao still got stunts to slow me down. Slow x Slow = Die slow slow.

I'm not trying to accuse ppl whu kip nagging(hey its really considered nagging wat) to me whu ask me slack so much. I know you wan to best for me lah. Lol but sometimes, its just too hard to do that. Busy sem with crap projects and TOO happening life is NOT a gd combination.

Dun really know how WSH will turn out anyway and seriously speaking i abit dun really care le bah. Despite the fact that this project is 25%(yes its goddamn ONEQUAD of our marks)After that still have WMP project which i might not be able to help my group to do since they doing it on a day where i have lesson( they elearning). Then thurs is the joke/sounds quite mafan de NPMC practical. Full of crap man.

And just saw that WSH he's gonna ask 10 qns. Woohoo with my group being the 2nd last maybe by then he so sian over dumb answers that he will blast us. Haha. Pray that don't happen.

Life these weeks was fun yet tiring and full of twist and turns. Other than work still have another thing to think about but seriously speaking, i feel like just chucking everything aside and just heck care this sem le sia.

Oh yah we went to see huihui on fri also. So long nv see her she changed abit i guess. Taking our NPMC reading was a chore also although we had fun on tim's car. Kns to tim everything also emo song sia. LOL.

Why is it that everyone have their own opinion of each other and yet we all dun understand and instead say things which hurts one another? U know sometimes i see things being done and yet another day i will see that person doing another thing. Its so contradicting. Humans have so much hidden things in all of us.

Haiz i really wanna just flunk this shit le lah. If not for the fact that i will pull 3 more people down with me i wont even wan to go present tml. Its THAT fucked up. FML is not enough to describe already.

I'm back ppl!

Ok lah i feel guilty for not updating my blog so long. Haha so now i liang xing fa xian or i came to my senses and decided to come back and write!

Haha so now is cause i kip SAYING alot of things to do (but not doing them) Then no feeling to blog. But now most of the things are half done liao plus i divided some of the work to other ppl liao so i feel less stressed thus am able to come here to blog. Actually if i really wanna blog i can at least write..... a post that u will nid at least 30mins to read. Serious. Haha thats how happening my life was this last week. But since its a private and sensitive issue i shall not write it. Sorry for curious ppl.

So i was reading somethings from someone. Got me so god damn pissed and angry and ETC. My god some ppl just wins man. Really. Whenever i tink of HOW WTF OMFG !@#$%^&* Heng he is i feel like beheading him. His luck is either earned through the years or stolen from others man.

Ah well over le lah. Shit man so irritated. Hmm then nowadays kip playing MH. Woohoo so fun. I know it sounds dumb but i tink its a ncie game. Not too complicated, cute mouse(usually) and i tink its very creative. Maybe in future ppl can make one on birds or cockroach, helps ppl to get over fear of them maybe. Ask them see cockroach think of the cute ones and then quickly get rid of it. Better than scream and run away solving nth. Ahaha.

Hmm then now is start of sch again, tink this sem i really will die also. I cant seem to get the things that the lecturers are teaching into my head. Siao liao gonna gg again. Cannot cannot. Haiz. Must do alot of things le now. To start training for army, to do my work, to study more(i said more only nv said how much) and to do more for otty. Haha. Saw an unfamiliar name? Too bad not gonna tell u. Woohoo Away i go b4 being bombed!

Happy New Year ppl!

Woah! I know i know i LONNGGGGG time nv post. I can only say this last week was so tiring and mentally taxing that i couldnt drag myself here to post. But hey its NEW YEAR so gonna at least post here. Wait crap now is actually 2nd Jan liao. Ah well not impt.

Just realize this hols i totally nv went out to meet my sec sch friends. Well except tze hock huishi derrick perry guangjie bingcheng junhua and kenneth. Sorry ppl. This 2 wk hols is really abit not enough man. Now i have to everyday chiong projects liao. No time no time.

Anyway i just hope that this year, i will be able to buck up and concentrate on my studies/work at COI. And of course got other things which i wont say here. Haha. Not gonna say anywhere.

Short post but thought alot. When i have time then write it all out ok. Love all you ppl. And i'm sorry, although apologies sounds hypocritical.